Sunday, November 29, 2009

Eating to live, not living to eat!

Ugh I am tired today, didnt sleep well last night. I sat up and thought about food, I didnt eat any, but thought about it. Thought about how I had allowed food to dictate my life. I find myself scouring the cabinets and frige like a small child sneaking forbidden goodies. As a child my mom would say mean things to me about my weight, I know I was the largest in my family no matter how active I was. I always checked out fine at the Drs and to this day (knock on wood) I have no health problems. I woke up and had no energy to climb out of bed, didnt feed the kids until close to 10am. I feel like a horrid mother, I know I need to do better, I tell myself to do better, but I cannot force myself to. I know I am not teaching my kids the right way to do things by being fat and lazy. Today I am going for a good long walk, at my own pace, but I am going. I need to be out in the cold fresh air.

2 comments:

  1. Kimmie! I just wanted to say hi!

    I hope you made it out for your walk. I looked at your food intake the other day. Although it is tempting, don't completely starve yourself thin. You will feel pretty awful and be out of your mind thinking about snacks. Eventually you will give in and feel even worse. I'm sure you probably know this though.

    I'm overweight, 31, and a mother also. It's hard trying to figure out what works. What I'm trying to do is take the approach of changing the way I eat for eternity. I try to stay between 1200 and 1500 calories normally (I'm closer to 1800 right now because I'm pregnant) and not full on dieting at the moment.

    I found a magazine called "clean eating" that has some really great guilt free recipes that make me feel full. Try to focus on your protein intake and fiber intake because they make you feel full. Veggies, veggies, veggies (I am trying to make friends with them) because you never hear about anyone getting fat on celery. Anyhow, focus on your eating first and use that time out walking to get your head straight. Eating is king and exercise is queen when it comes to weight loss.

    I would love to be your friend cheering you on! I added your blog as one to follow. Good luck!

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  2. Good for you Kimmie! First of all I commend you for your honesty. You are very brave! It isn't easy to acknowledge what we are doing wrong. You may not realize it, but by doing so, you are setting a very good example. Today is a new day, don't look back, look forward!

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